I loooove sleep.
I long for it. I crave it. I will do just about anything for it and I’ve always been that way. I’ll jump at any chance for sleep.
I discovered sleep is one of my biggest escapes from life. When I can sleep, I don’t have to think, feel or act.
I don’t have to make decisions or face life’s difficulties. It all goes away and I get a reprieve.
But lately, sleep hasn’t been the same for me. It doesn’t accomplish what it used to. I’ll still sleep whenever I can, but something has changed. I sleep…but now I rarely feel rested.
What used to be my escape, no longer works. I wake up feeling even more burdened than before and I’ve learned why.
Sleep can only give me the physical rest my body needs. I need to seek God to receive the proper rest my soul needs.
Jesus tells us in Matthew 11:28-30, “Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” (NIV)
I’m in a challenging season of life right now. There have been major losses, constant stressors, and life changing events with even more on the horizon. Sometimes I can’t breathe because of the overwhelming circumstances and my “escape” (sleep) isn’t helping anymore.
Because I need Jesus.
I need His easy yoke and His light burden.
I need His comfort, peace, and strength.
I need to trade in my sorrows for His joy.
Amongst all of that, right now I need rest. The physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual rest that can only come through Him.
When I turn to Him, rather than my mere attempts for rejuvenation, my weary soul is renewed. The burdens impressed on my heart are lifted. My vision is clearer, my intentions are purer and I am truly a better person, because He has provided me with all that I need.
He shows me how to be like Him…gentle and humble in heart. When I’m rested, I can receive that instruction; that gift He so freely wants to give each of us.
When I let Him have control over my circumstances, I can rest in His plan for me.
When I allow Him into the depths of my heart, I can rest knowing He sees it all and still loves me.
When I confess and turn from my sin, I can rest in His forgiveness.
Rest is a loaded word with so many meanings for me right now and they all involve Jesus. Trying to do it on my own just plain tires me out. I can finally see through the fog enough to know I need more Jesus.
Although it’s one thing to come to this realization, it’s another to fully practice it. I wish I could say that once I realize I need Jesus, I immediately turn to Him. But I don’t. I still struggle with wanting to control areas of my life that are so difficult to surrender to Him. It’s a daily battle…sometimes an hourly battle. One that continues to make me weary and that I continuously need to work on. My soul needs rest.
How about you?
Have you been in this burdened, restless spot in your life?
Have you wanted to hold on to some control over your life?
Was it hard to surrender? Is it still hard to surrender?
Do you know what is standing in your way?
Together, let’s go to Him…the Only One Who can give us rest.